Is it just me, or does anyone ever have those days where you just MISS people? You miss them so much you just cry? I miss a lot of people.
I miss all my old friends I lost because of stupid pointless drama, boys, and things you shouldn't lose someone you love over. I miss all of my friends that left on missions. TOday has been such a hard day because I lost someone that was such a good friend to me! I've lost my best friend because he went on a mission, and SEVERAL other friends-i know it's the right thing for them to be doing, but it's really really hard on me! ):
I miss all the people that have died. I really miss my Grandma Nielsen. She's been in my mind a lot the past year for some reason. Sometimes I like to think she's my guardian angel, and she's always with me! I miss any friends/acquaintances that have died. I Miss Ron Brown. I miss dancing on the beach with him, and racing him to go get towels! I miss my Grandpa Joe..so much. I Miss our "every other week" drives up to Idaho to go visit him. I miss him telling his stories and telling us to go get a lollipop. "One for now, and one for later!" I miss my family that I don't get to see very often, for all of the people that don't live close to me. I miss my sister. She is SUCH a huge role model to me. I miss Chad. He was.. such a strong person, and when I look back on it--he is such a hero--he died because he had the courage to do what he did. I miss Brandon. He's my best friend, and it sucks not having him here to give me a hug and have him assure me that everything is going to be okay. I miss being a kid. I miss those days where you didn't have a care in the world, because all that mattered was your best friend across the street, school, and spending time with your parents. When you're a kid, you agree and have the same morals as your parents. Sometimes I make my own opinion that is different from my parents, but soon learn they are right anyways. I sometimes wonder why when we're kids we're so eager to grow up, but once we grow up, we want to be a kid again.
I guess i've just been thinking a lot. I can't keep "missing" things or people. My favorite talk EVER is by President Monson. http://www.lds.org/conference/talk/display/0,5232,89-1-947-26,00.html I encourage all of you to read this. Because if we don't find joy in the journey now, we won't be happy. Don't grieve over the past, and don't look for the future, find joy in the present.
I often think about Grandma Joan and Grandpa Joe as well. I really miss them too!
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