Today...

This is my favorite picture of Jaren...
Life here is short. This morning, I got the call I have dreaded for a couple weeks now. My cute little cousin Jaren passed away. I have been praying my heart out for the longest time, and even fasted for the first time. It was definitely a cool experience. But..I was confused earlier when I didn't get the answer to my prayers. I had to walk out of my 3rd period with Brynn when I found out the news-and when I told her I didn't understand, she helped me understand better. I love her for that--and she pretty much calmed me about the whole thing. I did get the answer..I just didn't get the answer I wanted. Jaren isn't dealing with anymore pain here. It was his "plan" here on Earth and he completed what he needed to on Earth. He also taught us a lot of things--especially his parents! They are the biggest examples to me. It's strange to think about funerals. This topic seems to come up a lot with me and my friends/family. I've been to more funerals than anyone I've ever come in contact with. I didn't know if it was just because I was getting older, and realizing it more..but it's not. All the friends I've talked to have been to one maybe two funerals in their life, IF that. I'm lucky if I go to one-two funerals every 6 months. Instead of looking at it as if "I'm so picked on.." I look at it as.."Maybe this is my test.." or.."maybe it's my test of faith." it's hard...don't get me wrong.
But really..every trial makes you stronger. I will really miss everyone I've ever.. lost. But time here on Earth is so short..and I believe that when you die-you will see them again. And that will be the happiest day of my life--well..after life (:
If you've ever lost someone, stay strong. It's hard--obviously. But realize that it's all for a reason. Don't ever think God hates you--or that nobody will ever bear this pain. Because it's not true. It's all for a reason and it's God's will. Just hold on.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.