to my mother,

i think you'd be proud of me...

my heart aches.

every day.

but i always remember your advice.

i keep thinking to myself...

even though it's hard to let him go, just think,

"why would you love someone who doesn't love you back?"

or..

"why would you want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you?"

it hurts

its painful

and it aches.

but i'm getting along very nicely.

tonight at work, i was pleased to

look through my texts,

and every single person i had been texting,

was someone new i had either been going on dates with..

or had met somewhere.

i'm putting myself out there.

i'm trying to cope,

grow,

and it's therapeutic to me.

to know that there's more fish in that sea.

&& even though i love him,

he's been treating me like an object,

rather than a human being.

it's stuff like that,

that allows me to move on a little faster.

thank you to all my family & friends who are there for me.

i love you all so much..

i've never known heartbreak to feel so terrible,

but i'm doing the best i possibly can be.

xoxo.