[What if?]

Its crazy if you reflect on your past, and think "What if?"

What if I never would've lost the trust with my mother when I was 16 years old?

What if I never would've got caught playing with some lonely girl's head in middle school?

What if Ciara Long never went to Bear Lake with me two summers ago?

What if I didn't make the decision to text some random stranger I'd never met?

What if he would've lived? What kind of person would he be NOW? Would he be married? Would he have kids? What would he have named them? Would he still be my hero?

What if I never chose to go to the movies with a girl I hardly liked in middle school?

I think the answer to every single one of these questions...

I would be lost
I probably would've been pregnant, on drugs, or an alcoholic.

I would not be a good girl if I never got caught doing the things I was doing.
I wouldn't believe what I believe now.
I wouldn't understand how much HAPPIER I could be doing the right things.
I would be insecure.
I wouldn't have the friends I have now.
I still would've thought I was better than that lonely girl.
I wouldn't have met the person who changed my life around.
I wouldn't have saved some random stranger from committing suicide that night he was planning on it.
I wouldn't have the same knowledge as I do now if he would've lived.
I have learned so much from death, experiences, and the purpose of life.
I wouldn't have met my best friend that makes me better in every single way.
I wouldn't have changed his life around for the better, or his mother's, hopefully the rest of his family soon.

I don't think these are coincidences. I think these are miracles.

TO do on my bucket list, one is to witness a miracle. Little did I know, I've had plenty in the past 5 years that some take won't even have in a lifetime. It's so amazing how everything works. Follow your heart, and be a friend to all those around you.