[Lately]

Life has been a real roller coaster lately. Some people have been asking me lately if I had the opportunity to go back and change the wrong things I've done if I would. I always answer NO, because if I never would've done what I did, I never would've learned my lesson or learned something big from what I did wrong. In almost every situation, I try to take something from it and learn from my mistake. But lately, I've really been wanting to go back in time. I want to go back to when things weren't so chaotic and busy. I hate when life passes you by so quickly you don't have time to take in the beautiful & most important things in life. Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again. So when life gets tough you can just play pretend. I wanna go back to when Santa did exist. When your daddy was the only boy you ever kissed. When Disney World was the best place to be. When the only movies you could see were rated G. When your biggest problem was learning to write your name or tie your shoes and people didn't change, your friends were the same. And every time you were sad or you had a bad day, you could just run to mommy and it would all be okay. I wanna go back to no hurt, and no pain, just laughter. When everyone always lives happily ever after.
But, I guess that's life. I know after this trial is over, I will thank God for having that trial. But as of right now..I'm just getting through day by day, not really wanting to be here.
I know I should be more humble. And I usually am about these types of things. But holding it all inside doesn't usually help.